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It's been awhile. Oh fine! It's been a long fucking time.

Recently some floks have been asking when are you going to blog again. I kept saying "oh, I know I have to get back to that" or some other such comment. And I would think about it and realize "shit, I don't know if I have anything to say". The *feeling* or the mood just wasn't there. A couple of weeks ago I realized something. I've still been *blogging* all along. I've just been doing it inside of mah head. Yes, I am a freak.

Instead of blogging on paper I've been having conversations with mahself inside of mah head. Laying on the couch and sort of drifting. Driving in the car. Laying in bed those last minutes before you fall asleep. I have conversations with mahself. I'm probably should seek help but it's way easier and cheaper to just put in on paper.

I could be wrong but I would imagine the questions will be regarding SG AKA Dino AKA Mr. Twench AKA The love of mah life and our kids and our cats and our igauana. I know you all secretly worry about Iggy because you love him so. He's fine. He's green. He still sits on the window ledge for days. He still finds red nail polish alluring. Freak.

The kids are good. Dino's two are back to school and being typical teens and giving us gray hair. My two are living in their own 2 bedroom apt with Nory, my most favoritist granddawg evah and two cats. They're alive, they seem happy, they are adults

The most recent conversation in mah head lately has been Dino. I won't go into details right now I will just say that recently I think I suffered a crisis of faith. And no, he didn't cheat on me :) But I suffered a crisis of faith none the less.

It was a scary place to be in but I think that perhaps it was a good thing. It is a good thing to sometimes doubt in order that you can get over the doubt and remember how lucky you are. It's a good thing to look into your partner's eyes and KNOW that no matter what you're a team. No matter what, you will get through, or over, or around and you will do it together.

So I suffered a momentary crisis of faith. And it is entirely possible that one day I will suffer another one. One thing I do know for sure:

Life is one second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.